53) Bulimia was never really about weight loss for me. It’s invisible self-harm.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)
I AM NOT PRMOTING EATING DISORDERS : I KNOW MY BLOG IS A MIX BETWEEN ED CONFESSIONS, MY LIFE, AND FASHION/BEAUTY PICTURES. BUT IT IS A REFLEXION OF THE THINGS I HAVE IN MY HEAD ; MY PROBLEMS, BUT ALSO MY DREAMS AND MY GOALS. I AM NOT TURNING ED LIKE A GOOD THING.
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I desire to be perfect. I just want to share beautiful things, to have advices, motivation, hapiness, and to not be alone anymore. I want to be thin, but also to undertake a lot of projects. I want to feel perfection. In this blog I will share beautiful pictures, my progressions, and my passions.
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I desire to be perfect. I just want to share beautiful things, to have advices, motivation, hapiness, and to not be alone anymore. I want to be thin, but also to undertake a lot of projects. I want to feel perfection. In this blog I will share beautiful pictures, my progressions, and my passions.
52) New begining. Again.
I know, it’s like an infinite circle. Everyday I want to begin a new life, and everyday I fail.
But now it’s different. I really feel my relationship with food different. My life has changed, and it’s like I just need to get rid of the weight and everything will be almost perfect. I earn money with modeling, so I don’t feel stressed anymore of making a bad choice with that, and it will allow myself to buy me lots of nice stuffs. I have a normal relationship with a really nice person. And even if it’s not the passion I want to live one day, it is so different than my last relationship which was horible and made me feel shit and shit and shit. He helps me so much for my confidence. To have someone to who I can talk everyday, someone who hugs me at everytime, someone who repeats every day how good I smell, how amazing I am, and how lucky he is to have me.
SO I have a new plan I will follow, really low calories and sport again, but another dimension in my mind. I’ll probably post photos of my body soon. And I repeat, I’m doing modeling, so I need to loose weight quickly, but don’t do like me. If you want tips for loosing weight, I can give you serious, healthy and effective one. Some years ago, I lose 9kg in some months with a really, REALLY healthy way, so you can ask, but please don’t do it like me now.
